For as long as I can remember, I’ve loved music.
When I was a toddler, my parents recall me constantly saying, “Musica! Musica!” I grew up listening to my dad’s boom box on the porch during hot summer days and various Vampire Weekend songs on our family’s iPod. My mom and Grammie took my twin and me to see our first Broadway show when we were thirteen, and I remember the world fading into the shadows as the stage lit up. It was unlike anything I’d ever seen before: the professionalism, the talent, and the storytelling were on another level. I wanted to bring that sense of wonder, awe, and joy to an audience. I wanted to be a part of creating those big feelings for people!
The school I go to now, Mt. Abraham, goes from seventh to twelfth grade, and the year I was in seventh, we did Newsies. The fall musicals are always a staple here. Everyone from the surrounding towns came to see them as well, and I remember sitting in the audience every year before I got to Mt. Abe, thinking, “I’m going to do that someday!” So when I finally got to do my first show, it changed my life. Working hard for months and then finally getting to hear your audience clap so loudly you can feel the joy is one of my favorite things in the world. I fell in love with it instantly.
The only hard part about doing this is that I’m often the only person with a physical disability. It impacts my ability to do a dance sequence that looks really fun, or makes sure I can move freely enough on the stage with sets and props moving around me. Able-bodied people don’t often consider these things because they do not directly impact them, and I’ve had many a conversation with my directors and choreographer about making things more accessible or easier to do. I am also increasingly aware that proper representation is lacking in big theater industries like Broadway. For example, in Wicked, there’s a character who uses a wheelchair, but able-bodied actors only portray her, and her character’s goal is extremely stereotypical: to be “cured” and then she won’t be miserable. There are many cases of this, as well as actual accessibility issues getting into the theaters. Most theaters don’t have elevators or equitable seating options, and I wonder how easily a disabled performer would be able to move on the stages.